One

Just this post.


I realized that I should appreciate everyone in my life. Sorry if I haven't shown it.

The Last

Goodbye Bloggers. I'm leaving...
This blog, that is.
Is there a reason? Who knows?
Enjoy life.
I leave you with a ....
Frown on my face, actually.

Shameful

Woke up. Drove to 3 stores for a teapot. Went home. Slept throughout the day.

Life is fantastic.

Gardening

Today I realized how beautiful onions are.

And remembered that it makes your breath smell like shit...
after napping for 3 hours.

Lack of Dexterity

Things really shouldn't be this awkward even if we were totally out of it. I don't know.
Maybe I'm just being a dumbass.

Currently playing: Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy
I just had to blog that.

Currently

Currently, clipping my nails at 3 in the morning. Yes, I know. Fucking rebel.

What's currently playing on my iTunes? Canadian Koreans

What I have to do in 5 hours? Wake up and get ready to harvest shit for 3 hours.

Hmm. I kind of clipped my skin.

I'm kind of thirsty...

Haha. Probably anti-christ shit.

Expectations

The problem with love is that...
Well, love is shit. Absolute shit.

This is why it wouldn't work out for me.
-I have expectations. I have fuck high expectations.
-I'd be a whipped bitch.
-Dude, I'm fucking awkward.
And all other reasons in the last last post.

I'd get a fucking a fish. At least when that dies on me, I'm able to buy a new one.

Yep, I ramble about this shit.
This is becoming a long post. Eh.

Bitchass.

"Don't you think it's useless?"
"What?"
"Attempting to get something you'll never have."


We just have to live with it.

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We believe in what we want to believe.

Shower me.

Meteor showa, my ass.

Why wouldn't I date myself?

Didn't quite tell you everything.


-Because people can step on me and I wouldn't notice.
-Because I'm not hot.
-Because I'm a listener.
-Because I'm a liar.
-Because I'm socially awkward.
-Because I too don't show my feelings.
-Because I'm not smart or literate.
-Because I don't let anyone in.
-Because I'm short.
-Because I'm anal.
-Because I'm a germ freak in public places.
-Because I'm too gloomy and sarcastic.
-Because I'm obsessive.
-Because I take things too seriously.
-Because I can't swim.
-Because I'm not a good biker.
-Because I don't have any talents.
-Because I don't have a life.
-Because I just don't care.

Epic

Tonight, the radio played the entire album of Rubber Soul without commercial breaks. It was beautiful.

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You make me depressed.
You'll realize one day that we all contain feelings.

It will suck. Trust me.

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"i watched obsessed, i could do psycho better than that white bitch"

This made me chuckle.



I heard this on the radio. I laughed.

Cherry Pulse

I'm going to go dye my hair for 10 days.


I showered. I'm pretty sure I fucked up the color.

You are

Fuck dead.

Laziness appears.

Rebel.

I didn't go to golf practice today. Instead, I went to Nancy's ASB. It was entertaining.

Like O, Like H

Laughter is a beautiful thing.

Trippin'

I'm going somewhere with or without that person and when I do go, I'll be in this car or a Jeep. Whichever is fine.

No sadness tonight guys. Sorry.

Explanations

I hate people for no good reason.
I get angry for no reason.

Let's just say,
Fuck it.

Something

“We all die. The goal isn’t to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.”

:"Meet me in Montauk"
“ Lose an hour, gain an hour. This is your life, and it’s ending one minute at a time."

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What would you do if you were in my situation?
"You lie your fuckin' brains out."

"Meet me in Montauk."

The truth is that I spent 3 hours in bed this morning, wondering what would happen if I had died.

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Fuck it.
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It's a horrible thing. The person we go after is usually the "impossible". That's why we're still running and we're not even close to being tired.

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I'll never pursue it and you'll never know it.
This is a fucked world.
Imagine what it's like in my mind.

Beggars can't be choosers.

And for that, I'm sorry.

We chose our lives and our lives don't coincide anymore.
If you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking.
I hate emotions, it's like you're playing Russian Roulette with a three chambered gun.
If you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking.

Hello, stranger.

Strangers are easier to talk to. Let's meet one day, so I can tell you what I really feel.

Help

I have a headache. No sleep can comfort it.

Doors

The door that has been closed has about zero chance of showing or sharing anything.
What's behind?
You'll never see.

Leave it.

I'm sorry that I asked for a lot.
I can't grow close to anyone.
I'm going to end up alone.
I can live with this.
I'm comforted by this.

Asleep

I rereading my livejournal.
I'm going through my old shit.
Right now, I realized how pessimistic I used to be and how I am now.
It hasn't change.

Kids.

Singing off- key to all the songs that go on...
Eatin' my mama's potatoes/chicken.

Cause:Drinking too much ice tea.
Effect(s): Having to pee alot/Cheeks are hurtin'.

This is the life of a rock 'n' roll queen.

I no longer care.

Catchin' Parrotfish

I'm going to read. That's something I haven't said in awhile.

Mesh

Compatibility is hard to find.

Letters can do alot.
Really.

Day 4

Devil eye just like owner...

No worries. Your cat is okay. I'll see ya tomorrow.

Day 3

I saw these two Asian girls biking when I was biking to feed the catz. They were trying really hard to be trendy by wearing these ugly ass sunglasses. Okay, maybe not that trendy. Then I remembered what I was wearing, these John Lennon sunglasses, silk boxers and a white t-shirt. I was disgusted by myself. I wanted to say something to someone but they was no one there...

Good Morning, babes.

Day 2

I hate awkward dentists conversations.

I'm curious who Hopeful Dreamer is...
Whoever you are and I highly doubt you'll stumble on my blog..
Be fucking glad. Seriously. I fucking hate you, Hopeful Dreamer.
Lucky bitch.

Day 1

Damn the World.

The Infinite Abyss

I'm so in it right now.

Red Lights

You're worth it.

The Painting Phase

The Phase where it's okay to be disgusting.

The 4 Balloons

The Flower of Blurriness

The Wet Days

The Sea Of Shadows

The Heart that Continues to Bleed....

True

It's so much easier not caring about anything, than going through life, giving a shit about everything.

CPK

California Puta Kitchen.
Cathy fell down bleachers.
Nancy fell down stairs.
I fell down a step in front of California Pizza Kitchen...
Fuck you guys.
Thanks Cathy for laughing.
Thanks Nancy for picking the pizza instead of your own blood.
Assholes.
My only help was...
Bengay.

Now one leg has a bruise. And the another one is a bit puffy.
What's next? A fucking stab wound?

Golf is pain.

Golf..
is causing me pain.

I accidentally whacked myself on the leg with the club. Now I have a bruise.
I know bruises are hot, but it's not worth it.
My neck is sore from turning.
My back is tired.
But...


This is for you, you, my number one.

P.s. I know this fucking disgusting.
Two posts, a day.
I'm on a fucking roll.

Night

Just watched "Meet the Parents" and "Almost Famous" which was pretty fantastic.
The only good Kate Hudson movie.
Today, July 9th, will be a busy day.
-Golf practice
-Nancy's fundraiser
-Summer Corps Meeting
Fun.

I'm currently wearing a ridiculous beanie she got with The two J's.
God. Whatever, she got it for $2. It's warm.
But I don't think it's enough to get the coldness out of me.
Bedhead. Here we come.

Reality

Spent the day with Raini. Walked around the neighborhood. Spit cherry pits.
Realized how boring my life is.
I know what you're thinking,"You're realizing that, NOW?"
We didn't finish "Charades". Let alone, start it.
I kind of want to know what people are thinking. Even if it does kill the point of surprises.
"Without surprises, life is boring."
Can life really get more interesting?
Thank you, Tegan and Sara for never leaving me and keeping me company.
I appreciate you Canadian twin sistas.
This is not a phase.
We're always together....



Like 3 peas in a pod.

First Day of Blogging.

All-Nighters aren't fun without anyone to talk to.
I feel so lonely.

And yes, I'm actually going to blog and express myself.
That's right, express myself.